The smallest gestures in life touch my heart the most. Reliving the horrors of my past and losing everything...(my job, my home, my husband)...I went through a nasty seperation. I had a two dollar bill, my little dog, an old truck (that had a locked gas cap, no key, and no gas in the tank). I never wanted to spend the two dollar bill. Needless to say, I spent the two dollars.
As I relived the memories with my current husband he listened quietly and gave me a hug. The next day as I cleaned off my desk, I found an envelope with my name on it. Inside was a card and a two dollar bill. The note said "I want you to have your two dollar bill. I love you."
Nurses that become addicted to drugs...and the struggle to get clean. Various emotions, fears, guilt, etc. My next lesson in life is the last judgment I made about someone else.
MAN'S SEARCH FOR MEANING----Viktor E. Frankl
"A man who let himself decline because he could not see any future goal found himself occupied with retrospective thoughts. In a different connection, we have already spoken of the tendency there was to look into the past, to help make the present, with all it's horrors, less real. But in robbing the present of it's reality there lay a certain danger. It became easy to overlook the opportunities to make something positive of camp life, opportunities which really did exist." page 80.
About Me
- DH
- It's Just Me. Making some big mistakes, and learning some big lessons.
4 comments:
Terrific! In my self-help book, "Adult Loving Relationships," I call those "the big little things."
Carpe diem,
Bill
Absolutely, something I felt so bad about giving up was taken care of in one simple gesture...and
I still have my two dollar bill:)
DH
You have more than that!
LOL,
yes, most definitely! I guess the two dollar bill was symbolic in a sense. Losing absolutely everything...and it was just the last piece of my life to go. Letting go of that was like the last 15 years never existed. It was the best thing that ever happened really. Now I see the two dollar bill as my starting point in my new relationship, my new home, new life, new future. It represents the end of one chapter in my life and the beginning of another. Sometimes what I think is the "worst" thing ever, is really the "best". And, "bad" experiences is merely my perception...knowing that, gives me tremendous faith through difficult times. I am glad you reminded me of the importance of my two dollar bill. Thanks for stopping by :) -DH
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